Stupid New Years.... :-(

I tend to hate this time after New Years. We've just come down off of our eggnog-laced Holiday highs, the nice relaxing vacation days have ended and it's time to return to work once again. This year was no exception. I spent New Years Day in a bit of a funk, worried more than anything about being in the same exact place I am now by this time next year.

I've been really feeling lately that I'm in a rut. I feel like I'm in a dead-end job with just enough of a raise to pay for the health insurance increases, and I'm noticing more and more that my mind is just getting lazy. It's tough to realize that I don't know half of what I did when I was just out of school, and it takes a lot more effort to learn new things than it used to.

I don't want to get too down in the dumps here. My life could certainly be a lot worse than it is now. I have a wife, a dog, a house and a car at 32, and a reasonable expectation that I will have all of these things by this time next year. I don't really have any advancement chances where I am now, but I have steady work and steady pay. We're even hoping to be able to start a family this year.

I just wish for more sometimes. Okay...I wish for more a lot. I wonder if this is the start of an early mid-life crisis, or it's just me waking up and realizing that I'm not happy with myself lately.

I think more than anything else, my New Years' resolution is to try to drastically change something about my life. Something so that I know 2008 happened, and will remember it for the rest of my life as the year I ____. What that is and how I'd do it, I have no idea. I will by all means let you know when I do. :-)